monday madness
first week 194.5
last week 189
today 192
pounds lost last week 3(gained)
total pounds lost 2.5
I would like to blame it all on the cupcake---and it was a good cupcake---but it was also the hazy blur of a weekend of uneaten pasta salad that I had to finish. Did I mention that love pasta salad and since I had to finish that pasta salad I might as well wash it down with a tub of chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream, right? Well lets just say it wasn't pretty. This wasn't even in the realm of emotional eating. This was just eating.
So I was thinking of all the reasons that I want to be skinny. The things that top the list are all very superficial but I think that if the superficial ones help me---read: motivate me---attain my goal, then the important ones (i.e. be alive for my family) will benefit too, right? So, does it matter if I want to be skinny so that I can be the hot mom or that I want to be skinny so that if I see my husband's ex girlfriends I can secretly say "ha ha ha, in your face, he married allllll this." By the way I can still say that....but "allllll this" just takes on a whole new meaning right now. So I would like to hear from you all what it is that motivates you. What makes you stick to whatever goal you have? I don't care how superficial or how important it is....what is it that makes it goal-worthy for you?
ahhhh, thanks for the laugh. I'm gonna go totally honest and say I totally wanna be a part of the hot moms club. AND I totally wanna be the "sexy biatch" ! Yeah, want my husband to always come home and say, oh yeah, that's my woman! We can talk about all the health benefits and feeling good till we're blue in the face, thanks for getting to the real issue ! :)
ReplyDeleteOk, so what really motivates me...truth time...
ReplyDeleteBeing able to wear certain clothes I can't wear when I'm overweight.
The fear of people saying "Gosh, looks like she has put on a few pounds."
Wanting to be healthy but even more than that, wanting to feel that I have self-control.
I do have a thought for you on this subject...I plan to post about it soon so stay tuned...it has really helped me a lot lately as I am currently trying to get my act together also in the eating dept. My trip to the valley came with a five pound weight gain bonus.
I'll post my revelation tomorrow...
And man, the cupcake was totally worth it...
I completely get the fear of what people will think if they see you after a gain. I am so scared to see old high school friends and acquaintances...or worse the ex-boyfriend.
ReplyDeleteThe whole self control thing really bothers me as well. It affects other areas of my life besides food!!
I will check in on your post tomorrow....I am definitely ready to hear all thoughts on this topic!
....but that really was a darn good cupcake....
...by the way...it was Michelle's shower that started this whole overeating fiasco...can I blame this all on her?
ReplyDeletePlease, can I Michelle, pretty please?
i loved the pics! lol.....
ReplyDeleteyeah, i want to be totally hot! i want LR's exes to hate me and drool. i want to turn heads everywhere i go.
i let an old Victoria Secret receipt that i found of LR's ....some gift he bought for a mystery woman 2 years before we met....i can't wear VS right now.....(insert pained expression here)
old photos of my hot self from abotu 4-5 years ago.
these are the vain reasons.....of course i want to be healthy, blah, blah, blah...but thats not what i'm thinking about when i'm trying on clothes in the mirror...not thinking about preventing heart disease or diabetes (though my dad has it...i should be careful of that). i'm thinking d@mn my a$$ is huge.
My motivation to sticking with my diet is accountability from my mom. She's about to turn 50 and she weighs about 10 lbs less than me and is about 10x more fit! We share fitday journals (www.fitday.com) with each other, and the fact that i know she's going to see what I eat every day makes me really concious about what I shove into my face because I don't want to be embaressed by MY MOM!
ReplyDeleteMy motivation to sticking with my diet is accountability from my mom. She's about to turn 50 and she weighs about 10 lbs less than me and is about 10x more fit! We share fitday journals (www.fitday.com) with each other, and the fact that i know she's going to see what I eat every day makes me really concious about what I shove into my face because I don't want to be embaressed by MY MOM!
ReplyDeleteGirl.. you are SOOO singing my song with this! I go on the same binge fests.. usually containing some sort of restricted startch and ice cream, ALWAYS followed by guilt. My goal s are superficial too.. who doesn't want to be a hot mom, or have a rockin bod? I know I do. I also want to fit into my prepregnancy clothes and not feel like pregnancy ruined my body for good! (my son is almost a year.. time to stop blaming him I guess.)
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